We hit a milestone this weekend. On Friday, we officially hit the halfway
point for this pregnancy. Of course it
is a bittersweet moment. We are very
excited that we are halfway to meeting our baby girl. But all of these milestones also remind me of
what we were robbed of in our last pregnancy.
Making it to 20 weeks is a huge milestone. The halfway point. I can’t believe it’s been this long already.
We’ve had so much going on that the time has just flown by. I’ve noticed that I’m not even checking my
calendar for when our next doctor appointment is. Those 4 weeks fly by before I even know
it. But she reminds me she’s there when
I feel the flutters and movement in my belly.
It’s not super often (though some days are more active than others), but
enough that I know she’s okay and still there.
But making it this far reminds me of being robbed of feeling
our baby boy kick and move and seeing his face on an ultrasound. We lost him way too early.
But we are very excited to welcome our baby girl to the
world, and we know that she will have a wonderful big brother watching her from
Heaven. And though that is a comfort, it
is still hard to think about what we lost with him. But this baby is bringing us so much
joy. I can’t wait until we decide on a
name for her, so we can start calling her by it, instead of Baby Girl Ray.
I’ve finally started to actually put some weight on. It’s
been weird to see my body changing, but not seeing it on the scale. Although, I feel weird wishing I’d see
results on the scale, because I know once I do, it won’t stop until we’ve had
her! Ahh!
I had to run to the doctor on Friday to get something
checked out because a new pregnancy symptom hit and I had to make sure nothing
was wrong with the baby. All is fine and
I haven’t experienced that symptom since.
But it was nice to get in to see the doctor as peace of mind. It also let me go over some travel
information with him, and he decided to do an OB check also. So I was able to hear our little girl’s
heartbeat which is still beating strong.
Phew. But after what we’ve
experienced, we don’t want to take anything lightly and assume everything is
fine – and my doctor was glad that I came in to get checked – even though it
was late on a Friday afternoon. So we
felt much better going in to the weekend.
And we kept our next appointment, so we get to hear baby’s heartbeat
after our vacation also!
I wrote this post in order to celebrate what we’re
experiencing and looking forward to. But
also to remember our Angel Baby in Heaven with whom we lost so much. We love both of our babies and know our baby
boy will continue looking out for his little sister as each day of the
pregnancy progresses and throughout her life.
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